Reminder for myself: It’s all about quality of life and finding a happy balance between work and friends and family. Success will then come from the result of perfection, hard work, learning from failure, loyalty and persistence.

Hi, am currently drafting my posts on the friends bkk trip and my 25th birthday happenings. Counting my blessing every day, stay tune for the updates! 
I had a family involvement of something memorable yet unfamiliar. My family and I witnessed the whole process of digging up the dead. In my case, was my great-grandfather. 

Every year during QingMing festival, I looked forward to go praying in the wee hours as I find peace and serenity, especially how my grandma gave sincere offerings with the preparation of home-cooked favourite food, clothes and money etc ..... Now I have no kin in the cemetery because great-grandfather has just “moved his house”. 

I skipped the ritual in the morning to “touch the ground 动土” and only went for the “digging of gold 拾金” in the night time. Sorry if anyone of you don’t understand the jargons I converted them from mandarin, initially I am clueless about it too. 

My family and I reached CCK chinese cemetery last night at 9, it was pitch-dark in there. I’m unable to see the signboard if there’s no headlights. We went to the grave and the tomb was excavated that we could see the coffin. It’s an old design that both sides are curved up. There was also a big shelter above the grave to ensure there’s no sunlight entering throughout. 

We were asked to turn around while the workers unscrewed half of the coffin. Unscrewing took about 5 mins and I’m playing with my torch and Godpa got scolded by Grandma for shining light at other’s grave LOL! They told us that great-grandfather’s grave was filled with water, kind of expected because older design of coffin can trap water when it rains but water will never be able to escape. The smell isn’t very pungent surprisingly.

One of the worker started pouring out the excess water and slowly picking up the bones from the water in the coffin. We were just less than a metre away from the coffin and I was not terrified. Firstly, he picked the leg bones and both white socks were still intact. Next was 2 knee caps, 2 hips, few rib cages, jaw and the whole skull. He picked up the skull last and that was when I’m shaken, I feel a shiver down my spine. There was also 3 pens found, a black belt, a silver watch and his clothes. Is my great-grandfather a scholar why are there so many pens inside I’m just wondering. Another few workers was washing the skeleton bones with white wine before they put all of the bones into a big bag. 

Now that we have placed great-grandfather into his “new home”, grandma was relieved. And if she is, we are too. Grandma is the most wonderful and thoughtful daughter-in-law, she gained so much respect from us. She’s so dear to me.

All I can do was to represent you, dad. You’re the eldest grandson to him and I will always do everything for you to do you proud. 

My generation and newer ones will never be able to have such exposure and I’m glad to be here with my family. 太公 will always be remembered, you started a part of me. Rest In Peace.



I’m looking for serenity, does changing a religion helps? My soul are filled with anxiety, anger and resentment these recent years. I don’t see myself having such problems or sorrow compared to the past. I do not want my constant state of stress to lead to some clinical depression. Anger is an emotion toward someone who you feel has deliberately done you wrong.

At this moment, I wish someone could help ......


What are dreams? Is it achievable? What do you do to keep your dreams alive?

Feeling pretty bored now to take the red line to Yew Tee to meet my buyers 😒 I guess I’m the only seller that is so accommodating and would travel anywhere as long as it’s Singapore 🇸🇬 I should really learn to say N O 😪

#throwbackphoto from Hong Kong Family Trip 🤤

My body clock is so screwed, slept at 5am in the morning daily ...... I should probably kick this bad habit away to feel like 22 ha 😆

Doing business for me is more of marketing, dealing, selling, merchandising etc .... and at the end of the day you gained profit from the line of work you’re doing. Ultimately it’s the profession and hobby that keeps me going.

Today, I received a few new orders. Having a bad headache at the point of time, I popped in a panadol, struggled through the pain, picked up my stocks, arranged and prepared accordingly. Before I can go to shower and head to bed, I need to make sure the purchase requests are all done. Time checked was 4am. 

After a long day of deliveries and MMA at Singapore Indoor Stadium, it’s time for bed in the most comfy clothing ever!

Business isn’t as easy as I thought. It does not only involves lots of hard work, effort and time. However sometimes, negotiations and bargaining just have to make the transaction incomplete or delayed. Well ...... still I believe that for everything that you do, put your heart into it and you’ll definitely see results! 



Thanks to bi’s boss, Gideon for the MMA tickets! We enjoyed watching the fight that proved sportsmanship! It’s my first experience and my heart indeed got braver. After all I sensed that it’s an unstoppable dreams for some, proud of all the challengers today!

Our Japan trip this year was confirmed! Flying with Singapore Airlines in the premium economy class this time! I can foresee for a brand new experience and anticipating trip with bi. I am very much looking forward to. Thankful for this man for everything, love. I don’t deserve so much 💗

What a surprise and happiest message from bi today. He told me that he wanted to bring me to Japan this year! Am I feeling excited to go Japan or am I thrilled to go overseas with bibi alone for the first time? We are the couple that would love to compromise everyone hence most of our overseas trip were with our close friends, my family or his family if anyone realised .... Ultimately we want everyone around us to be happy and we will be. What about now? What about today? Hmmm

One of my favourite dish cooked by grandma 👵🏻 Our family love grandma’s “tau kee” be it in dark sauce like this or veg curry. My bibi love this dish too. Every time if he’s going over, grandma will prepare this for him without fail. I really miss her cooking ...... especially those primary sch days when she got me fried egg and fried chicken wings for dinner! 😍😍 谢谢阿嬷,我们都很幸福。

My bb is getting married in 6 months time. I’m feeling happy and excited for her, it’s #lifedecisions we’re talking about now. Met her 11 years ago, who would have thought she will be the first in the clique to hold a wedding dinner?

How many of you came to my website and found out that I hasn’t been blogging? Well ..... as much as I want to blog and update about my life, I’m just mentally tired and drained to do so.

I’ve signed up for a gym membership recently, not only because I’ve gained weight but also to stay fit. Realised my health and fitness have been going down the hill ..... Hoping my momentum stay throughout at least for a year okay. 

And of course nothing worth having comes easy. I’ve given up on sweet drinks even like pokka green tea and ice lemon tea! Of course try not to have junk food too like mc’donalds, kfc. The most torturing part is no ICY WATER for me. Hmm this have nothing to do with diet, but health. No icy water meaning bye bye KOI and bye bye to my new found love- LIHO lychee tea ..... 

Bi told me Sunday can be my cheat day but I’m still considering if I want to consume them ..... I have literally no idea how did I eat clean for 9 months and went jogging + cardio every single day when I was 22 years old ..... 
We’ve been together for three years! Never thought we would come thus far, the only thought was we do not want to be apart. Well, it’s certainly challenging to stay with someone everyday, it requires lots of compromise, patience, understanding and mutual respect. Of course there are some tiffs and bickering in between us and sometimes nothing is quite right, but ultimately we got to know each other a little more as time passed. Always appreciated this man for stooding by me and have the telepathy within us. It is not easy to find someone you love that love you as much. Love doesn’t always come with fireworks ...... sometimes love comes softly.

Oh & I have been with this little puppy for coming 1 year :)

Bi brought me to Ryo Sushi for our 3rd year. Reservation is required as each session only have 8 seats. This was not the most expensive sushi restaurant we’ve been to, however you decide if it’s worth going after looking at my food pictures!



















I’m feeling so freaking hungry while uploading these pictures ..... The last sushi- sea urchin was my favourite! 阿比真的把我宠坏了。。。

It’s been so long bi and I watched such a good movie. Buy your tickets now and watch how Lara Croft survived till the end! Featuring Daniel Wu too.

This movie was really tough for Alicia Vikander, her acting skills and trained body was perfect. 好久没看这么精彩的电影了!很开心到忘了我的包包留在戏院里。

New hair shade for cny this year 😯 I am loving my perm despite it had been 3 months ....
I’m here to do a post about food! Those food images in my phone that I can’t bear to delete. Allow me to share all the delicacy that was once in my tum2.

1) Yole- strawberry flavour with white chocolate. A lot of my girlfriends don’t like Yole, they prefer sweet dessert like ice-cream. Personally, bi and I love this strawberry 🍓 flavour the most and hoping that it will come back soon.


2) Pho Street- my first time trying and I quite like the soup taste, it’s more flavourful comparing to ytf soup that’s my opinion. 


3) Imperial Treasure Super Peking Duck Restaurant- located at Paragon, well-known for their roasted peking duck to perfection.


4) (FORGOT THE BRANDING)- a rich and moist chocolate log cake during x’mas party.


5) 888 Mookata- founded by local celebrities located at the coffeeshop. You can choose platter for two or four. For those craving for more, there’s a la carte dishes too. Bi ordered foie gras on our last visit, it’s so savory and fragrant. 


6) Chicken In A Biscuit- my favourite childhood snacks. It brought back a lot of memories with my dad. Saw it at Suntec Giant after my exam few months back and bi bought me the whole carton!! It’s also the last carton, the rest of the boxes are empty. I shared it with my little cousins and friends and ended up with 2 for myself. Sharing is caring, I’m happy like this. 


7) Home-made Scamble Eggs Toasted Bread- made with love from love. Breakfast. Enough said. 


8) Big Street Singapore- a variety of local delights and udders ice-cream in the house. Hokkien mee is nice however it’s a little overpriced at $16.80. Salted egg prata, coin prata with chilli crab sauce also attracts a lot of customers. There’s a dart machine on their 2nd level and a big tv screen. We watched MMA fighting on our last visit and the ambience was good. Total damage on your wallet can be quite high, warning. Oh and last but not least, he’s also 我的菜。

How was it easy to release the stress and let go of what was? They said life became easier when you let go of the unneeded stress too.

So now I learned the hard way that I cannot always count on others to respect my feelings even if I respect theirs. Being logical and reasonable doesn’t guarantee others will be good too. I only have control over myself and how I choose to be as a person. 

As for others, I can choose to accept them
or
walk away. 

I’m going to keep practicing my kindness. Listen to my heart, let go of what I can’t control. Make this year productive yet calm. Lastly, to continue counting my blessings. 我们的计划一定要成功!最后想谢谢我的比比那么懂我,厉害到连我这狮子脾气都难不倒他。我答应你我们的承诺, okay? 
I hardly share my personal life on the social media, as in I don’t broadcast every high and I don’t hide every low. But today, I want to share my closest families and friends to the whole world.


Cong fetched me to the bbq at the beach when Alan is working and do not have time to bring me there. He asked if I needed food when he visited the market. Side track, Hon asked if I needed food too previously. 有这些用心来交朋友的人真好。是我的福气。
My closest friends are all afraid I might starve and die? Here’s another my closest with, “eat le bo?” 我欠这个最多,因为他对我真的很好。I just hope that this brand new year will bring you lots of love and luck, stop being so 伟大 at everything and learn to love yourself before others. 谁欺负你,还是可以跟我讲叻!!

I don’t usually take sweet stuff like chocolates, potato chips, sweets and fizzy drinks. But this Christmas, I had it all. That’s explained why 我生病了。This girl have always be there for me, have my back. She always initiate for our meet ups etc. I suck at being a good friend. Thanks for your continuous 14 years effort. You’re a truthful friend and I need those. 

Never expected myself to be friends with Chew Ming and also to stay connected even after graduation. Let me explain, we are only classmates for 1-2 hours daily in school for the entire sec sch life. So students, study hard and get your ass in the express chinese class and you’ll meet a good friend like me. She always talk sense to me, give good advices, encourage me and having faith in me. She loves to say I have 人缘,and never fail to believe I can achieve something. 有你的支持,给我很大的勇气。

My bb is having really busy schedule this year, new occupation and her big day coming up!!! Although last year, we had some friendship issues however I’m glad we spoke to each other and we make up to it. I somehow took things for granted esp friendship, that’s because 2017 I’m in my downfall and I kind of stay-out-from-everything. I’m grateful that she found her love and Alastair have been treating her really well. Thank god for watching us, we the bb are blessed. 

He’s my best friend, my bed whisperer, my listener, my cook, my clique, my boyfriend and everything. A lot have been questioning about our love life, we are going steadily and well. Afterall a private life is a happy life. I’m so lucky to met someone that I’m so comfortable in sharing everything and someone that loves me dearly. His daily incoming text did not stop ever since we started dating and after 2 years 9 months and still ongoing ...... Please don’t stop and love me harder. You’ve taught me to breathe and take things easy. 我已经很需要你,没想过没有你的日子。爱你比比,谢谢你的耐心 patience,宽容 toleration and love towards me. 

My readers will know he’s my Godpa! He’s a superb husband, great dad for double R and me and a filial son. After my dad passed on, he have been trying to give me the best and played the “dad” role for me. He always called to ask about my whereabouts, work or exams etc and I usually don’t have a habit to call my family members except my grandma. I suck at being a god-daughter too. 

Talking about dad, he had left me close to 16 years. I have always regretted not to give him the last kiss when he asked before leaving home. Typing this can make my tears flow rapidly, I still miss him dearly. He always have a wish for me to enter into university, I shall not say I failed him because I will achieve something bigger in life and have my own happy family in the future. 我很清楚那是我不能回的从前,你就永远住在我心里吧阿爸。

最近和妈妈有小吵,其实我很难过。那么难过是因为她对我很重要。我不知道我做这些是对或错,我有一点迷失了自己和方向。我也发现很难了解她。。。

I don’t have a big family but I have them. 谢谢老天爷,我知道你总会为我安排一切。我很幸福也很知足。

2017 was honestly life shitty. Although I’ve gained new experiences somewhere somehow, I’m glad it’s over. 

This year
Learn a new skill
Visit a new place
Take a risk
Be unstoppable 
This year will be fierce.

Promise sign,
JTHY